To anyone reading these posts:

This Journal started in early 2006 is a collection of mostly eccentric and or Frustrated rants

There is little edited out so please read with an open mind, or don't read !

-Faith

what the fuck


most of you know my car was stolen recently.... now it looks like the kid who stole it isn't the only law suit I'll have

why do jobs like insurance exist>? they should just be called pay us to low ball and screw you

im falling behind in school with all this stuff too i have never felt more stressed out... i don't know what i would do if i didn't have David, he's the only thing keeping me from madness.

we got all the stuff in order with the new place and looked at bedroom sets today... He gives me something to smile about at least. Though I ant help but feel guilty having him go through this with me... He always says "we" will get through this... but the last 2 weeks i wish he didnt have to.

He has spent so much time helping me go through paper work and legal docs, finding a new car (which is impossible when they refuse to give me the # of what i will be getting in settlement) getting work done in between... i guess trauma sadly is an indicator of how strong your relationship really is...

At least i'm lucky enough to have enough love, support and strength in my life to get through this.

This kid i used to know died 3 days ago...

I have no clue how to feel but i cried a lot and i cant stop thinking it could have been me

classes start soon, i am welcoming the distraction. It seems Dave's going to have to go to CT the week were supposed to move. Not actually an inconvenience and easily fixed, but i am somewhat annoyed about it tonight... I R all sneezy tonight too, allergies suck

/Sigh

its been like 2 straight months with out tragedy, why is this all bothering me so much?

This message of angst brought to you by the letters B-L-E-H

on a lighter note 2 couples i know recently got engaged. One thats been dating less time than Dave and I... I felt a lil judgmental till i realized Dave and i have been living together for almost 8 months... yup.. lost that debate.

I think i'm just ready to be moving on again... Just one year left then we are moving to Albany. Even have a few great houses in mind we liked. I feel like this past month i have been standing still... It was hard...but working so much early on at least i felt really accomplished, working full time at CDHS i feel accomplished if i manage to find work to do heh. (they over staff in the summer not enough work to go around)

Realistically things are pretty much perfect i dont honestly have anything to complain about, other than allergies and being cranky tonight for the first time in a while.

Things with Dave keep surpassing any concept of how amazing things could be. We have certainly become the sickeningly perfect couple..Mel likes to yell at me about it... she thinks Dave and Ben need to spend some time together in BF Training.

ok..enough babbling.

Productive huh

18 credit semester ahead + Independent study (still waiting on numbers but i cant believe i got a grant) + Field placement + work

"do you know what happened to the boy who suddenly got everything he ever wanted...He lived Happily ever after"

-F

Been having trouble sleeping lately... I keep waking up between 4-6 am and can't fall back to bed

David and I are leaving tonight for vacation, a well needed one. This release has been stressing him out a bunch. A week with out being Douged will do him some good.

We are set to Jump 10 am Monday morning so wish us Luck !

D is really excited about it, i just cant wait for that free fall... best feeling ever!!!!!!!!! I haven't felt anything like it before in my life... I wish i could afford to jump twice a week heh

Work has been tedious. I have training on a new Ilinc system today... at least it's not doing finance paperwork or whatever odd job they find... they simply have too many people working full time right now.

I have had to start drinking coffee in the mornings, most of you know how much i hate that heh

David's still in bed... i wish i could be asleep... /sigh

We have found a lot of great houses though, thinking about looking at some of them on our way back up state. We will be spending tonight at his parents. I look forward to seeing his mom and dad.

ok (Yawn) Guess i should finish packing.

See ya in a week

Sometimes I realize I make a difference.

I want to call every good teacher and positive influence and thank them, and today I did thank a few.

Sometimes I get just the confirmation I need to know I am exactly where I want to be and I get the feeling I deserve it.

I realize I am finally starting to get back all I have given for 22 years, and how much of a beginning this still is.

I am who I want to be, and I am proud of who that is.

I can see a future now because I am getting closer, not because I need to escape the present.

I just never thought I would get here... and now that I'm here I can’t believe how much farther I can go.

Thank you...

David and i have been apartment/house hunting. I guess at this point were hoping to make an investment before we move.

In any case its ridiculously exciting and thankfully we have very similar tastes so there haven't been any love hate battles just yet...

Things are going really well, with the exception of a one week brain vacation.. thanks for those who helped!

We are headed on our real vacation end of this week... He finally gets his B-day present... and i get to push him out of a plane!

Well i have to run back to work, just a quick update

Meetings to come shorty for my research project. Hopefully i can find funding before the start of the Fall semester.

http://buffalo.craigslist.org/apa/766834986.html

Zoo pics up ...July 4th pics to come

Best Weekend Ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Spur of the moment trips heh

We woke up early Sat. and went to the Zoo which was Tons of fun! plus i got some excellent pics hehe, followed by some damn good margaritas and a good lunch. Sadly my apart. was like 90+ so we went to the movies and saw Wall-E(now my new fave movie btw) it was a lot of fun.. i felt more moved by the romanbce of 2 robots than i have any fleshy romantic comedy heh then we went out to my Fave sushi place for dinner came home and ya know... "relaxed" :)

Today we woke up a lil later had some fun and some good breakfast and randomly decided to go visit the Falls... I got to see more than i have before, went on maid of the mist, walked around Canada a bit and came home to a relaxing evening.

I am ecstatically happy

Oh, It seems plans may have changed So it looks like David and I are moving in together in Oct. which were both really excited about !

I love being able to have non stop happy posts....

This is what i have been waiting for :)

been to busy to post

so just an FYI

LIFE IS PERFECT

I have been in a perpetual state of somewhat constant stress this week Yarrrr

The apartment worse than its ever been.... and most of you know how wonderful i am at cleaning, I get home from my night class and I am lucky if i feel like showering let alone working on cleaning.

I'm doing fine this summer semester, so at least classes are of somewhat less concern work wise... but having this schedule is taking its toll on my patience, For some reason being this stressed makes everything feel like its a slight. Like the all the little things that go wrong sorta jumble up on me.

Being this stressed and Davidless hasn't been so great.

For the 4th we are supposed to go camping this weekend... i just dont think i am going to make it though. Seems like a poor time for a 4 hour train ride and walking away from the only free time i get from classes. Which sucks...

On a lighter note i aced my first Bio exam, which is certainly a first for me... Sadly this is as much celebrating as i get ... so Woo Hoo LJ lol

I also got a bad infection, thats been giving me fevers on and off.. not a fan of that either,,,

le sigh

i just want to go to bed :(

i need a break... more than 3 days

Ok, so i have not had much time to post lately. My 1st summer session was completed, A's in both classes YAY!, but this 2nd session is just ridiculous. The work isnt particularly difficult but the time spent is awful

Faith's Day

7am- wake up

8am-1pm- 2 classes

1pm-5pm- Work

5pm-8pm Class

8pm+ - stress, eat, sleep, rinse ,repeat

Bllllaaarrrgggg... anyway it really isn’t so bad unless i cant find something to wear in the morning heh

Anyway... i pose a question, When did i become a perfectionist? I have been getting very upset lately by my group (in a swk course) I sent out an email to everyone, delegated the work set deadlines etc etc... when the heck did i become this person? I have been a note taker for SD this past semester, and i even enjoy it... even been thinking about doing tutoring again?

Oh Noes... I think i am starting to like school AHHhhhhhh

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David is going away to CT to visit his Mistress Doug. lmao... doug, anyway

Cylce get together/ work extravaganza

I dont want him to go though... i have become very spoiled and the idea of not getting nightly snuggles or my morning toss our of bed is sad.

plus he is totally going to leave with out helping me clean the apartment hehe i know it!

lol

ok well back to work

Emergency trip to Long Island, moms in the hospital :(


She was so happy to see Dave and I

the house looks so different to me , its cute they have pics of david and in the guest bedroom.

They really like him :) and i cant believe how lucky i am that he dropped everything to drive me out here

David is the Burrito Bandito !


.... Apparently i have been having dreams involving Dave stealing from me.... But he is always stealing my Mexican food....

lmao... i have now twice hit him in the middle of the night for taking my taco or Burrito

I would feel worse if it wasnt so damn funny

( at least the other night you stole the pillows too, so it was slightly justified )

Ok i have to stop procrastinating

- Burrito Bandita out

To all Ya'll that wear fanny Packs ....


and pony tails!

Migraines suck :(

... Dave took care of me all day


going canoing next weekend


... How did i get so lucky?

Letchworth was BEAUTIFUL ! I took a ton of pics (thanks to scott letting me use his camera)

I have been getting migraines again lately, i think its my glasses. Anyway had to skip out on dinner tonight after the movie...

Oh We saw "THE FALL" @ The Little... it's nice to not be restricted from going places heh

Amazing movie (i am in love with the guy from pushing daisies)

anyway, Dave stayed home and took care of me...

(sappy moment)

I have never felt so loved, or more appreciated in my life, We kissed in the rain out at the view of the falls... it was the most romantic moment ever! I seriously must be the luckiest women in the world...

(sappy moment complete)

SHITE!!!!!! i forgot to call dave#2.....

nobody is perfect right?

Oh... btw my posts are going to go back to being all locked. My email address got put out on something at work... and i dont want to have this blog traced back to me.... esp not the older posts. So if you need me to give you access just let me know, i will add whoever wants to be.

kk time for nip nap

:)

Just my luck moment:

DAVID!.... You have my license !!

/crap lol

First off Exciting day for David. He is installing Cycle's software @ RIT (where he grad.) So congrats baby!!!! I am very proud and I will be driving to Le Rochester in a bit heh. Stupid distractions i can never seem to get away heh

I am hoping we are still going to letchworth this weekend hiking sounds fun!


Weird morning so far though. Had Faith Dreams last night... they are always way to realistic for my liking. Anyway I spoke to Adam for the first time in a long time in this dream, then when i woke up I had an invite through gmail from him. Just a fluke mistake, but it was odd. Anyway, the conicidance was really yhe only strange part, though I did finally get to tell him i was happy for him through a less anonymous route, which made me feel good :)


Other weird moment.. waking up to a dave free bed... He had to wake up before me today...not used to that heh

As long as he isn't in the bathroom when i need it all is well though lol

Another Thur. Cubed last night, band was ok. We got to meet mel's b/f...Interesting guy! Though the pendants he makes are pretty sweet it be fun to go to his studio, get to see the ren fairs glass blowing exhibit a lil closer.

So my summer is getting really full

MY BROTHER IS A DR ! heh all done and now (since he is no longer a student and lost his grant) Jobless and ready to pay back loans lol, i dont envy big brother

But... He managed to shake some time loose, so Dave and i will be heading out to Ohio soon to visit, and go with Bri too Cedar Point Woo Hoo!!!

David and I are going skydiving The first week in August !!! He said it wont hit him till we are jumping... it wont really hit him though till i push him out mwahahaha

in sooner events theres umm HOMEWORK !

and this upcoming weekend we are a lil torn... Got invited to go Rock Climbing with his brother... but have plans with Davids parents in Albany... Chris also is going home that weekend for a party so..yea we will see what happens...

We have been trying to plan a rock climbing trip as well, so it seems oth will get done soon enough.

ok i should get going.

Just a fun start to the day , i love not having to wake up early on Fridays hehe

oh wish me luck i am going for another scholarship ! this ones for jew monies hehe

And i am off

<3

Oh...

Just for DB: MOO !!!!! A pineapple says what? (cheer up!)